Oh! Hello! Excuse my excessive vanity but I could not help myself not to take some self-captured photos(selca/selfie). What do you think of my hairstyles? I’m really having a hard time in expressing myself and trying to choose a style that would fit the corporate environment while not compromising to incorporate my identity. Back in the university, I don’t really have to worry about these kind of things as my university did not impose dress code and we’re free to wear anything. Dyed and crazy hairstyles were kind of norms and people won’t judge you for it. It was the main reason why I was confident flaunting my crazy hairstyle/s as the students and people there made me feel that I can be whoever I want. However, my university life has ended and I have to face a world where I must conform to its rules. I also have to accept that I have to deal with a lot of different people now, whom may find my sense of style a bit off and exaggerated.
That is a challenge that I must face but I know very well that it will always be up to me to decide on this matter. I know that change is inevitable and sooner or later, I might have to embrace a different path. I may change and no longer be the girl with the crazy hairstyle but that doesn’t mean I will lose my identity along the process.
As I have said before and would love to reiterate over and over again, I won’t let anyone define me. Having a crazy hairstyle is not the only thing about me as I have lots of things to show to the world. Just brace yourselves (lol).
Rest assured that whatever decision I make, I promise to enjoy every moment of it.
P.S. Don’t worry, I can still be crazy from time to time. Hahaha.
The moment I logged in, I got a notification from the admin telling me that I am celebrating my 5th year anniversary in this blogging site. Hooray for that. I know that I have been neglecting this blog and I really feel guilty about it. As much as i want to write and just blog the whole day,I know I just can’t as I need to earn a living but let’s not dwell about my frustrations and bitterness in life as I want to celebrate this day.
I know that I am not a perfect blogger and sometimes, my grammar sucks but it doesn’t actually make me feel less like of a blogger. I created this blog not to please anyone but to make a space in which I could pour my heart’s content and write about random things. This blog has become my sweet little haven and I treasure everything that’s in here even the post about lyrics. There are times that I love to go through each post and I always feel confident and happy especially when I realized how random I can be. Sometimes, I speak about love, life and then shift about fashion. I don’t really have a problem about it as I don’t want to focus on blogging about just one particular thing. I want this blog to be spontaneous, random and very much free. I want this blog to represent a portion of me so I don’t want to put a label on it. This is not a fashion blog nor a lifestyle blog, this is Mayms’ blog, always and forever.
Watching youtube videos especially about make up has become my favorite hobby. While browsing and checking a lot of “make up guru”, I stumbled upon this cute, little “bald” girl named Talia Joy. I was kinda shocked to see her doing make up as she’s probably 11 or 12 when I first saw her videos. Later, I learned that she’s actually battling two types of cancer and the hair loss was the result of the treatments. She also posted on her youtube account that she doesn’t like to wear wigs and that ” make up is my wig.” After then, it has become my habit to check on her page regularly not just because I pity and feel bad about her situation but because she’s really good with what she’s doing. As a make up guru, she gives a lot of cool ideas and tutorials which makes her at par with the popular ones. I have witnessed how she captivated her audience from youtube up to the time she appeared at ELLEN’s show because of her amazing perspective in life. She has long accepted her fate and vows to live her life to the fullest and to keep swimming no matter what may happen.
It was heartbreaking when I heard about the news of her death. I know she’s in a better place now as the heaven has open its gate to another angel. Rest in peace my little angel.