Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

mayms89 is a really unique name for me. I actually wanted to be called as Mayms. I think it has been my default pseudo name for everything that I do online.

MA- is actually from my name aiMAe..

Y-M-S remind me of some important stuff and chapters in my life.

Y stands for my YOUTH…so many memories to remember and cherish…

M is the initial of my crush’s name..(since I was in high school) and reminds me that falling in love and getting hurt are  inevitable…we have to go through it….

S stands for SEXY..yes..I don’t know but a lot of people put me down because I am not SEXY but beauty and sexiness has no definite standards.It’s up to us on how we define them ..For me, I am SEXY and confident about my self..I love everything about my body..I’m proud of it and I really don’t mind what other people say about me as long as I’m happy.

89- my birthyear.Yeah! 89-baby.yeah. year of the earth snake:

Earth Snakes are the most relaxed of the breeds. They lead calm lives and offer a down-to-earth appeal to any conversation or outing. This may make them seem more friendly, as you may not feel the need to wonder what he’s got up his sleeve. They may also shun the need to lash out or take risks, but it isn’t from paranoia. They figure their good sense and work ethic will pay off and bring them much fortune and material satisfaction.”

Overcoming the sickness….

The truth about what had happened to me is that for a while, I tried to think that everything is my fault which is not a good thing to do. Blaming one’s self will just worsen the situation and would never make things better. i know that i had caused a lot of pain towards other but I  learn now how to let go of the guilt and pain so that I could embark into another journey in my life…



NARUTO’S reunion with his father, the 4th Hokage

naruto and minato

Well, Naruto kind-of-lost his hope and tried to break the seal that the 4th Hokage gave to him. After the 8th tail of the demon fox appeared, the 4th hokage were able to come back to stop Naruto.

He then told him that he is his son and that he must not try to break the seal for it might cause much trouble for Konoha. He told him that the masked-Akatsuki member is the one that is controlling Pain and the one that is responsible why the Fox attacked the Konoha sixteen years ago.

Before disapperaing, Minato, strengthen the seal again and told Naruto that he must do everything to stop Pain in a manner that he believes for there is still hope that Konoha can be rebuilt.

The manga episode ended upon the disapperanace of the demon fox…and Naruto is ready to face and fight Pain, no matter what may happen…

Naruto’s worst heartbreak…

Hinata confesses her love for Naruto in a very odd circumstances, Naruto is on the verge of concealing defeat on Pain. She told Naruto how he was able to change Hinata and how she struggles to protect and be with him. She knows that she might die on interfering Pain’s actions but she wanted to protect Naruto in any means even if she had to sacrifice her life. The manga series ended when she was trying to attack Pain but he is just too powerful for her (and she could  probably be dead). With such happenings, Naruto had experience and felt the worst anger that he could that in a matter of seconds, he was able to release a sixth-tailed beast…

The outcome of such tragedy is not yet known..but my heart aches for Naruto’s loss as well as for Hinata. Throughout the series, I was hoping that the two of them would have a chance to be together..but it seems that it would never be possible..And I am hoping that Pain will die..This series is hurting me too much..(first, death of Jiraiya, second: death of Kakashi and now..Hinata..)..

I really feel so bad about it..

And here is the page that contains Hinata’s confession…(from onemanga)


He’s not mine.

I have move on but I’m not yet over him.(sigh) It is a bit difficult especially that my heart doesn’t want to cooperate with my mind. I tried everything to forget this feeling but it seems that he will never leave my heart. He occupies the space that i meant not to delete nor try to forget.

Right now, I am just an ordinary girl in his eyes and a mere passerby in his life. He still couldn’t or wouldn’t grasp the reality that I am irrevocably in-love with him. I know that he had caused me so much pain but that is the price that I need to pay for loving him even though I know that he is destined to be with another girl. 😦