44/365: Change.

I know that I have been neglecting project36 but I have a reasonable excuse. Actually, I wasn’t really satisfied with the kind of pictures and stories that I have, it seems that everything that had happened was not really extraordinary so the need to update the project wasn’t really that strong. It was a reflection on the kind of life that I am living, too safe and too ordinary. There were times that I always find myself trying to explain things that I could not fathom sending me to some bouts of depression. It’s as if I am already experiencing a quarter-life crisis. It was hard but I was too afraid to break the norms of my life as I was not sure if I would be strong enough to face the consequences. The fear of the uncertainties keep on holding me back and for quite some time, it has become a cycle. At first, I was trying to condition myself that this may be the life that’s for me but deep inside I know that I don’t deserve it. I owe myself the chance to break free and to find my own niche. It was a difficult decision but at the end of the day, I know that I can no longer keep up with the cycle and I started unchaining myself  from the things that are  holding me back back and pinning me down to the abyss of fear and frustrations. I am still uncertain of what the future holds for me but I know that I needed to take the risk. It’s not easy but life has never been easy for me. I just have to take the chance.

32/365: February Musings.

Yay! 1 month down and 11 months to go and I am hardly keeping my promises for the project365. I know that I have been a no-show, no post the past few days but I promise to improve it. Promise.

I also have to be really serious about dieting and exercising as the previous week, I was really not feeling well and got a flu. I went to the doctor and she wanted me to take a series of laboratory tests(Good gracious, I’m afraid of needle) so that she’ll be able to properly guide me for my weight loss program. Hmmmm. I know that I must accept that I am not healthy anymore and that I need to do an action for that. I have already set my plans  and goalsand I hope, yes I declare that I can reach them by the end of the year.

Here’s my list for a healthy lifestyle:

Exercise Daily ( Run for 21 mins a day)

Drink plenty of waters

Play soccer every sunday

Learn rugby (American Football) and join the TThS Practice Schedule.

Eat more nutritious food

No more snacking on junk food (Yes! I declare)

Learn to control binge eating

motherFor a healthier 2014.