My first love, my first heartbreak…

I consider you as my first love and I know that your love is eternal but I wasn’t prepared for my first ever heart break – your death.

Papa, I know that you all want us to be happy and successful. You worked hard, provided us all our needs and wants and went the extra mile just to give us the life that we deserved and we are so grateful for that. I know that life may not be the same without you especially that we are in the process of accepting the reality that you are no longer with us.

How do we start the day knowing that we won’t hear your voice again? I thought you would be the one to take me to the altar when the time comes that I get married. We have so many plans Pa and my heart breaks with the thought that you won’t be with us to reach and realise those plans. It pains to see mama and my siblings cry but I know that like me they are also trying to make sense of everything. We cry our hearts out because we love you so much. I hope and pray for strength and guidance. Pa, we may have lost a father but we know that we gained a guardian angel. Continue to watch over us Pa and we will promise to exemplify your life through our actions. We find solace and comfort for words and stories coming from the people that you had also inspired and touched their lives. We are proud of you and so happy to know that we are not alone is seeing how great and loving you are. We also witnessed how heartbreaking it was for them when they learned upon your passing.

Rest now, Pa. It may be painful but the pain reminds us of our love for you. Thank you for loving me, Mama, my siblings, your granddaughter and everyone that you cared for. You are always in our thoughts and forever in our hearts.


A Quarter and A Month – Life in the Metro

Change is inevitable and I am in the process of learning, relearning, setting and resetting my life and trying to calibrate my dreams and goals. I have come into a realization that there are things that I need to prioritize and focus on. I have come to redefine my priorities and embrace the things that truly matter to me, thus I decided to come back to the place that is so close my heart, Mindanao.

Last April, I moved to the Metro for a career advancement and was really happy and excited to start anew. I had a new routine, met new people and had a very exciting start plus I started working with fun and equally amazing workmates. I also found a nice place where I shared with a very close friend (A friend way way way back college and one of the very few that so close to my heart and she knows a lot about me plus we complement each other so much).  I love the busy life in the metro though at times kind of tiring especially commuting but it opened my eyes to new things and made me learned about myself especially on the idea of surviving. I also love the night life, I mean, bars and clubs are open way too late compared to my city so more bonding and fun time with friends.

One of the downside (maybe true to all metro city) is the cost of living. First, I am paying the same rent with our rent in my home city but we are comparing here a single unit with a 3-bedroom apartment. The living space is really small and the  comfortable ones are with a hefty price tag. Food! Gosh, this is the most challenging part! Having to live in a city where vegetables and fruits are more of provided through own harvests or very much cheaper then having to pay way more than what you are used to in the Metro. Let’s say a kilo of mangosteen is 600% higher in the metro. Let’s not even talk about the vegetables, there may be cheaper but not so fresh. Seafood and fresh food are also an issue. Maybe, I’m just so used of the vast availability of these food in my city and hometown and having to enjoy fresh catch almost every day.

Living in the metro has its  own ups and downs and as I slowly embrace my love-hate relationship with the metro, I faced one of the tough challenges in my life which is to leave  and go back near my home city for very personal reasons. My decision is not indefinite and I know that change will always be inevitable. As for now, I am back but who knows when will I be back to the metro. I take things one step at a time and enjoy wherever and whatever the journey may be.


I feel frustrated that we have to deal with the demons that other people created to serve their self vested interests. We have to fight off and carry the torch because we want to prove them otherwise. That moment that we waited came and all our efforts paid off. Our actions set the motion to show them how distorted their views about us just because they decided to keep up with the demons instead of fighting it off.

Vindicated we may have but I feel frustrated of the lost time and opportunities because we were judged than supported. I may have forgiven them especially those people who are directly involved but I am still reeling from all the consequences of their actions. I do not wish them to suffer but  they should have at least their own share of the consequences of their actions.


I know but I think this is something that I must remind myself especially when dealing with other people. There is a system that enables such injustices and no matter how hard we want the world to be fair, sometimes it isn’t just fair.

no worries, I am not gonna suck up things such as that. i do not wish for revenge but someone has got to stand up for what is right. I will not be deterred.


Crossroads. Endings. Fear. Life.

There is always an end for everything especially when we reached that point in life where we have to make a decision to what path do we want to take. No matter how great the journey is, end must come and change is also necessary. This is where fear starts to creep in especially if there is uncertainty of what the future may hold. I have been thinking the past few days and trying to reflect on what path must I choose, do i want to continue this kind of path or take this big leap of faith for something that I crave and wanted so much even with the scarcity of the needed resources. I can “yolo” life  as much as I want but am I ready for it? I have always been a calculated risk taker especially that I know that my life choices would eventually have a butterfly effect on the people around me. I am not in the better position too to just leave things behind and take this unbeaten and unpopular path of life. I know that what I want is not what the expected norms but I cannot deviate so much far from it as I have to deal with this s–t called “adulting”.

I know this is another phase, another chapter i have to close and let go to start anew.

This is life.

Hello 2016-err-2017

I would really say that blogging was not my top priority for 2016 and I missed a lot of opportunities to post all the amazing adventure that I did for that year. I did not have the time to create a 2016 montage video too to show you how my 2016 did fare just like what I did for 2015 but let’s see how can I summarize my 2016 for this post as I feel I need to at least share with you the highlights of my 2016 before I start my 2017 blogging journey (I do have high hopes that this is possible.)

January 2016


I started my year right with a concert with one of the best Japanese rock band concert- One Ok ROck! You got it right! I went to Manila to attend the concert which I prepared for the last 5 months of 2015 with my dear Jrock-anime lover-ViK! We had a blast even we stayed for just 2D2N as we were also able to visit Manila Ocean Park, a day before the concert.

The concert was epic and Ryota was so hot with his shirt off, I mean he really did start without a shirt off till the end of the concert. It was the craziest concert I had attended in which I found myself dancing-jumping and rocking for two straight hours. Talking about my  adrenaline-insulin junkie self.

March 2016

A great friend of mine got married!

Samal Escapade with my siblings and other relatives


June 2016

I had undergone a major  dental surgery that almost drained my savings and whatever left of me financially. I do have a medical insurance but too bad it only covers basic dental services so I ended up paying for a whole lot of chunk with the medical bills -parents also contributed big time (Thank you Ma and Pa).

I also started to re-allocate and rebudget my finances for some adulting responsibilities (whatever left after the surgery)and I realized that adulting takes a lot of toll financially (kidding!). Traveling will not be as often as 2015 yet I decided to look at the brighter side of it and took it as an opportunity to try backpacking on a shoestring budget.

July 2016

Birthmonth and Baby Shower 🙂

I prepared a baby shower for my sister. 🙂


Random Staycation 🙂


August 2016

For the whole month of August, I attended the ASEAN Youth Volunteer Programme in which I was among the 50 DRR Youth Leaders from 10 ASEAN Countries representing my beloved Philippines(host country). The program highlighted the participation and engagement of youth especially on issues concerning the ASEAN especially on Disaster Risk Reduction. If you are free, please also read my blog post about my whole  experience.

I am grateful to be part of this programme in which I have gained new friends and new experiences and I was just half way for my 2016.


September 2016

This was a bittersweet month.

Last September 2, 2016, my sister gave birth to my beautiful niece, Iona.

Later that night, my beloved city of Davao experienced one of the challenging situation ever-a bomb exploded in the downtown area.I was really concerned especially that we were in the hospital at that time and I heard the code white announcement. I pray for the soul and continued healing of all the victims and their families.

I also booked a trip that I do really look forward for 2017. (Soon!)

I was also able to went back  to my hometown to visit my grandmother in the hospital and able to visit the popular Sibungan museum which is just less than 300 meters from the hospital. Three days after, my grandmother died.

October 2016

One phrase- OCTOBER BEACH FEAST! plus Maguindanao

  1. Dahican Beach, Mati, Davao oriental

2. Boracay Island

3. Baler, Aurora

4. Maguindanao


I also attended the wedding of my colleague 🙂

This is the first time that I attended a 4 AM wedding ceremony (most of the pictures are taken during the reception). I wok up at 2 AM just to do my hair and make-up and has to travel to the wedding venue. I dozed off during the ceremony though even I had a caffeine fix before the wedding. I dropped by to a 7/11 store to buy some coffee with the wedding outfit and make-up hahaha.

Some realizations that i have especially being in an age bracket that is considered marrying age is to invest into a basic dress that is considered the motif of the year. I did it last 2015 and 2016 which become handy to me. In an average, I do attend 2-3 weddings in a year and most of them have stuck with the motif so I saved big time with the dress. I only utilized one dress for a year but have become creative with accessories, shoes, hairstyle and make-up. 🙂

November 2016

D’Leonor Hotel, Davao City

December 2016

Holiday Season with various gatherings, celebration and reunions! (Too many photos!)


Overall, my 2o16 has provided me a lot of opportunities to learn, unlearn and relearn about myself. Things were quite challenging and I had a lot of bumps along the way but you know things just do fall on their right places at the right time. Some aspects of my life may not be where I wanted it to be but 2016 has taught me to be patient and savor every moment of it. I’m just happy with all the new friends, experiences and lessons that I have gained from 2016. I wish you all the best!

Hello 2017!


P.S. I have decided to take some time off from my personal blog as I need to work on my niche first so I will be back here in the meantime. I promise for at least one post per month and hopefully a weekly routine. Let’s hope ❤