Dec 20 2017

My first love, my first heartbreak…

I consider you as my first love and I know that your love is eternal but I wasn’t prepared for my first ever heart break – your death.

Papa, I know that you all want us to be happy and successful. You worked hard, provided us all our needs and wants and went the extra mile just to give us the life that we deserved and we are so grateful for that. I know that life may not be the same without you especially that we are in the process of accepting the reality that you are no longer with us.

How do we start the day knowing that we won’t hear your voice again? I thought you would be the one to take me to the altar when the time comes that I get married. We have so many plans Pa and my heart breaks with the thought that you won’t be with us to reach and realise those plans. It pains to see mama and my siblings cry but I know that like me they are also trying to make sense of everything. We cry our hearts out because we love you so much. I hope and pray for strength and guidance. Pa, we may have lost a father but we know that we gained a guardian angel. Continue to watch over us Pa and we will promise to exemplify your life through our actions. We find solace and comfort for words and stories coming from the people that you had also inspired and touched their lives. We are proud of you and so happy to know that we are not alone is seeing how great and loving you are. We also witnessed how heartbreaking it was for them when they learned upon your passing.

Rest now, Pa. It may be painful but the pain reminds us of our love for you. Thank you for loving me, Mama, my siblings, your granddaughter and everyone that you cared for. You are always in our thoughts and forever in our hearts.

Nov 4 2017

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Sep 27 2017

C.H.A.O.S.M.Y.T.H. – ONE OK ROCK

Whenever I find myself in a constant struggle to fight off the emptiness inside, I would turn to music. Those words I can’t seemed to fathom, emotions I can’t seemed to express and thoughts I am having difficulty to control are all suddenly in check. Music has given me the refuge and  the chance to understand what I am really feeling inside. Today is one of those days and I am happy to find comfort in music. Special shoutout to One Ok Rock.

Aikawarazu ano koro ni hanashita
Yume wo boku wa oi tsuzukete iru yo
Mou kotoshi kara isogashiku naru yona?
Demo kawarazu kono basho wa arukaraSo everybody ever be buddies
Days we grew up are days we will treasure
Show everybody show is beginning, curtain has risen
Make your own storyline
Dream as if you will live forever
And live as if you’ll die today

Fuzake aita wai mo nai
Kudaranai hanashi wo shite wa
Nakiwarai nagusame ai
So owaranai uta ima utau yo
Dream as if you will live forever
And live as if you’ll die today

Waru-sa ya baka mo shita ne yoku okora reta ne
Tada tanoshikute son’na hibi ga zutto tsuzuku to omou teta
Kedo kizukeba otona ni natte tte
Sore totomoni yume mo dekaku natte itte
Sorezore ga eranda michi e

We have to carry on
Our lives are going on
Demo kawarazu ano basho wa arukara

So everybody ever be buddies
Days we grew up are days we will treasure
Show everybody show is beginning, curtain has risen
Make your own storyline
Dream as if you will live forever
And live as if you’ll die today

Fuzake aita wai mo nai
Kudaranai hanashi wo shite wa
Nakiwarai nagusame ai
So owaranai uta ima utau yo
Dream as if you will live forever
And live as if you’ll die today

We all, we all
Have unforgettable and precious treasure
It lasts forever, it lasts forever

Toki ga tachi oite itte mo kakegae no nai takaromo no wa
Me ni mienu katachi janai taisetsuna memory
Korekara saki mo zutto isshou zutto…

So everybody ever be buddies
Days we grew up are days we will treasure
Show everybody show is beginning, curtain has risen
Make your own storyline
Dream as if you will live forever
And live as if you’ll die today

Fuzake aita wai mo nai
Kudaranai hanashi wo shite wa
Nakiwarai nagusame ai
So owaranai uta ima utau yo
Dream (oh, yeah) as if you will live forever (will live forever)
And live as if you’ll die today

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CREDITS FOR THE LYRICS

Sep 20 2017

A Quarter and A Month – Life in the Metro

Change is inevitable and I am in the process of learning, relearning, setting and resetting my life and trying to calibrate my dreams and goals. I have come into a realization that there are things that I need to prioritize and focus on. I have come to redefine my priorities and embrace the things that truly matter to me, thus I decided to come back to the place that is so close my heart, Mindanao.

Last April, I moved to the Metro for a career advancement and was really happy and excited to start anew. I had a new routine, met new people and had a very exciting start plus I started working with fun and equally amazing workmates. I also found a nice place where I shared with a very close friend (A friend way way way back college and one of the very few that so close to my heart and she knows a lot about me plus we complement each other so much).  I love the busy life in the metro though at times kind of tiring especially commuting but it opened my eyes to new things and made me learned about myself especially on the idea of surviving. I also love the night life, I mean, bars and clubs are open way too late compared to my city so more bonding and fun time with friends.

One of the downside (maybe true to all metro city) is the cost of living. First, I am paying the same rent with our rent in my home city but we are comparing here a single unit with a 3-bedroom apartment. The living space is really small and the  comfortable ones are with a hefty price tag. Food! Gosh, this is the most challenging part! Having to live in a city where vegetables and fruits are more of provided through own harvests or very much cheaper then having to pay way more than what you are used to in the Metro. Let’s say a kilo of mangosteen is 600% higher in the metro. Let’s not even talk about the vegetables, there may be cheaper but not so fresh. Seafood and fresh food are also an issue. Maybe, I’m just so used of the vast availability of these food in my city and hometown and having to enjoy fresh catch almost every day.

Living in the metro has its  own ups and downs and as I slowly embrace my love-hate relationship with the metro, I faced one of the tough challenges in my life which is to leave  and go back near my home city for very personal reasons. My decision is not indefinite and I know that change will always be inevitable. As for now, I am back but who knows when will I be back to the metro. I take things one step at a time and enjoy wherever and whatever the journey may be.

Aug 27 2017

TAGAYTAY 2017 and The struggle and beauty of TAAL Volcano crater.

I have been wanting to visit the Taal Volcano crater since I visited Tagaytay and saw its beauty from afar last 2015 and I glad i had the chance to do it. Last June 17, 2017, I went to Tagaytay with a friend and we decided to trek and see the Taal Volcano since we want to see how a crater do look like (it is his first time to see a volcano too). The volcano is located in Talisay which is just adjacent to Tagaytay and would take less than 20 minutes tricycle ride.

However, I was not prepared how difficult it was to trek even with an easy trail to follow especially that we had to  do it at around 10 AM under the unforgiving heat of the sun .

There is also an option to ride a horse if you do not want to walk the 1.7 km trail but we opted not as I feel bad for the horse(my personal stand). It was really struggling for me but I guess the beautiful sight even to the way up is enough to keep me going. My pace is kinda slow esp that I did not have any preparations, no jogging prior to the short trek. There was even a time that when we were nearing the top, there were no longer trees we can seek cover and the steam from the volcano is also around adding to the heat we have to deal.

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Despite the struggles, I’m glad I took the opportunity to take the trip. It wasn’t easy for me but the beauty of the crater made the whole trip so worth it. I’m actually thinking of doing it again (but of course, I need to prepare before hand). While we were on top, we also went to the red lave view point where the view is much spectacular and breathtaking! We also had some fresh buko juice (cold!) to quench our thirst!

We stayed for an hour and descended but on the way down, I had to endure a painful muscle cramps on my calf that slowed us down. That’s the price of going there unprepared though!

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Upon reaching the center, we did not missed the opportunity to try the famous Tagaytay dish, Bulalo, and went to the Picnic Groove to unwind and buy some souvenirs!

Overall, the trip was fun and worth it even if we only stayed for a day!

Tagaytay is really a good place and really near the metro so it’s very much convenient to go there especially if you want to seek refuge and take a breather from the busy and fast paced life in the Metro.

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Photo credits: Jason KL