The girl sat beside me and she took her wallet out from her tote bag. She was smiling when she was looking at the picture of a handsome man, maybe his boyfriend or husband. She then looked at me and said,”My boy…i lost him in an accident but  I can still feel his presence around and it seems that he’s always serenading me with our favorite songs.” And then, she walked away.

Creepy? Nope, it’s romantic..death doesn’t always part us from the one that we truly love. For they would always occupy a special place in our hearts and life…

I’m tired…just tired of all the things that are happening..I got lost somewhere between the truth and the lies that keep on haunting  me..

I might lost my sanity…

And lost everything…

I just got wind up in the world of perplexity wherein I have to face my greatest enemy, myself… and to challenge the remaining hope and love I have to continue on living in this cruel world…

And I’m just too exhausted…and can’t stand being like this…hating myself more than anyone else…

mmhhh…thank you for that particular moment that we shared…I will always cherish it…you make me whole again after everything that I’ve been through,,,
Please don’t change… you’re everything to me…You will always be in my heart and in my mind,,,

love and kisses…
Aimae

I was staring at him with no apparent reason. His face seems so perfect that me eyes are glued to it. He never seemed to notice such loving glare but I still continue to gaze while cherishing such wonderful moment.

I couldn’t take staying away from him but I know it is the only way for I know that we are two worlds apart.

He’s everything to me as well as to other women, much better compared to me, but I’m still hoping that he could lend me some love and I am willing to pay the price for it. His affection and love means a lot to me and just right enough to keep me surviving into this cruel world.

My love for him caused me a lot of pain but what can I do if my heart still desire for him. My heart will never get tired of waiting for him, it may die along the way but I know it will always find a reason to reset everything and to resurface with so much love stored for him…

My first love

They say that “first love never dies” for it will always take a part on yourself that you can never let go nor forget. I really don’t know if I will still continue to believe on it especially that I had experience a lot of sufferings because of love, My first experience on love is not actually the greatest thing that ever happened to me but it was my first experience on pain that almost tear my heart and took my life away(figuratively).

He was the first guy that I had a crush on during my freshman years. He was a bit shy and silent that I got interested on him. And then, some unexpected twist had happened when our teacher assigned me and him to be on the same group. I was very nervous at that time especially when I approached him to ask for his number so that I can contact him about our report. He was very serious at that time that he never noticed that I was shaking and trembling, maybe because I was too overwhelmed of the fact that I could have a chance to know him a little bit.

The report did not turned quite good for I wasn’t able to help him but he never complained about it and somewhat considered the fact that I was still a new student and I was still preoccupied of adjusting to my new environment and life.

But it wasn’t me after all that needs adjusting but the thing inside my heart that couldn’t slow down its beat whenever he was around.

And then, I learned from a friend that he has a girlfriend and the two of them are so in love together that nobody can ever break them apart. I was a bit hurt but that never ceased me from falling madly in love with him. It was so intoxicating that my thoughts and dreams were all about him.

Until, one of my friends told him about my existence and my feelings about him. And because of that he became so aloof and we never had a chance to talk.

And right now… moving on is the best thing that ever happened to me…

I have move on but I’m not yet over him.(sigh) It is a bit difficult especially that my heart doesn’t want to cooperate with my mind. I tried everything to forget this feeling but it seems that he will never leave my heart. He occupies the space that i meant not to delete nor try to forget.

Right now, I am just an ordinary girl in his eyes and a mere passerby in his life. He still couldn’t or wouldn’t grasp the reality that I am irrevocably in-love with him. I know that he had caused me so much pain but that is the price that I need to pay for loving him even though I know that he is destined to be with another girl.