Falling for Mr. Wrong

Love happens even if we could not find a reason for it. There are thing that don’t make sense yet we try to ignore them especially if we are dealing with our feelings. I have been taking a lot of considerations and trying to warn myself not to fall in love again especially if I am not yet ready to but it seems that I am not capable of knowing when I would be ready to fall in love again.

The worst part of it is that I continue on committing the same mistake all over again, by falling to Mr. Wrong. I could not find a single reason to ignore him especially that we are destined  to be near with each other and I befriended him. I am not yet sure if this is wrong but I want to be with him even if I might hurt a lot of people around. I wanted to be selfish and have him for myself but I have to accept that I came on his life the moment that he was so sure that he will be spending the rest of it with another girl.

I don’t want to confuse him but I also wanted him to consider his true feelings. I know that he’s struggling and I am here. desperately waiting for him to choose me over her. I love him and I think, that is the only thing that really matters right now even if I am committing the biggest mistake in my life. I just hope that it will be worth it.

SO WHAT LYRICS-PINK

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na

I guess i just lost my husband
I don’t know where he went
So I’m gonna drink my money
I’m not gonna pay his rent (Nope)
I got a brand new attitude
And I’m gonna wear it tonight
I wanna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
I wanna start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
I wanna start a fight

So so what?
I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t need you
And guess what
I’m having more fun
And now that we’re done
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright, I’m just fine
And you’re a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t want you tonight

Uh, check my flow, uh

The waiter just took my table
And gave to Jessica Simp – Shit!
I guess I’ll go sit with drum boy
At least he’ll know how to hit
What if this song’s on the radio
Then somebody’s gonna die
I’m gonna get in trouble
My ex will start a fight

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
He’s gonna start a fight
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
We’re all gonna get in a fight!

So so what?
I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t need you
And guess what
I’m having more fun
And now that we’re done
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright, I’m just fine
And you’re a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don’t want you tonight

You weren’t there
You never were
You want it all
But that’s not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren’t there
You let me fall

So so what?
I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t need you
And guess what
I’m having more fun
And now that we’re done (we’re done)
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright(I’m alright),I’m just fine (I’m just fine)
And you’re a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t want you tonight

No No, No No
I Don’t want you tonight
You weren’t there
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright, I’m just fine
And you’re a tool
So so what?
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don’t want you tonight

Ba da da da da da

Examsss!!!!

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The semester had just started and we had then our exam in Math 101. not one but two exams in a row seems to be a tough challenge for me. I am a bit busy for I joined some organizations that needs my commitment and time. Academic demands will never leave me alone and I really don’t know what to do.

I’m always faced with tough problems that needs tough solutions. And I don’t want to make things worse by neglecting some of my responsibilities. I know I have to think and plan every decisions that I take especially that exam week(for 1st exams) is fast approaching.

I just need to take more effort on my study habits and be responsible so that I will not regret in the end. I am just starting and I know that there are lots of things stored for me, it can be for my betterment or the other way. I’m just hoping  that I can make it.

xoxo

the anatomy of pain

1. Loving someone that is not capable of loving you back.

2. Being with someone who treated you as a scapegoat.

3. Realizing that you have given up everything for him, but he was never yours.

4. changing almost everything about you yet he never cares

5.  your love one doesn’t remember your name

though pain is something that we don’t want to encounter, yet we need to face it for us to become a better person. Right now, i am facing the painful reality of life and love: that love is not a constant companion of life but love always affect live drastically. Love made me suffer more than I should but i still try to move on and I still hope that he can still be mine.

give me a break

…deadlines, oral exams, mid-term exams and the like…

How long will i suffer because of them…

I’m so stressed out that i could not even think about having fun…

I know that i am inclined to sports, yet I could not find a little time for it, for academic demands and pressures keep on beating my senses and even my sanity…

I wish i can have a little break…

to breathe some fresh air

and even to contemplate on my self….